the Lord's prayer. somehow it jus didn't occur to u that i actually obey that prayer and follow it strictly. "forgive our debts, as we forgive our debtors" i did forgive long time ago. if no talking means i'm angry, i'm sorry for being angry for more than half of the world. i did follow that strictly. God taught me to forgive ppl. to whoever i dislike, i try to forget about issues i'm unhappy with, and forgive.

walking past and scolding someone? this is totally off description of me. apparently i don't look old enough to show that i grew out of that long time ago. if u're trying to fame me, try something that actually FITS my character. whether u are trying to fame me or not, i don't care. but seriously, i'm disappointed. after trying so much to so-call protect someone who's dear to me, going thru all the bloody damn trouble worrying about her getting hurt and all, this is wat i get back. a slap right in my face. serves me right for poking my nose into something that's not my business. i'm mocking at myself.

don't worry, trust who u wan to trust, whoever u wan to trust. not gonna force or watsoever. maybe i really shld melt into the background and make my existance invisible. sometimes i wonder do i exist in this world to be hated by ppl, to be blamed by ppl. go ahead and hate me or dislike me or despise me or do watever u wan to do to me. i can take it. or at least i try to. leona is tough. i can tolerate everything. until the day i cannot take it anymore, the day i totally dun exist anymore.